Posted August 3, 2009 at 10:58pm
why ; alex.
the night was turning out great. drink after drink you downed without ever skipping a beat. singing to the king of pop, laughing, never even thinking the fun would come to a sudden stop. midnight came and drowsiness did too. laying down in bed, getting comfortable, when your true side finally shone through. play turned voilent, unpreventable. usual light hits turned into fists, making bruises inevitable. screaming please stop, you’re hardly struggling to hold me down and get on top. hair being pulled, get off screamed. you don’t listen to my requests. this happening, something i’ve never dreamed. my muscles fight the urge to give in, but i’ve been here before, i look up with tears to see your grin. auntie comes in, thinking we’re playing when we’re really not as you had been saying. i struggle to get out of the room, slightly feeling as if it could have become my tomb. i run into my uncle’s arms, feeling safe, away from you and all of the caused harms. in bed next door to you, inspecting the pain inflicted. wondering what we really got into. my face stings, my lip is busted and red, i close my eyes, tears run down. the terrors playing back in my head. crying for hours, scared to sleep. you can’t turn back now, you got us in way too deep. next morning, i’m sorry’s over and over. i didn’t want to hear it, for to my good night, you were my depriver. looking at you, arms stretched out for a hug, i want to say go fuck yourself. for you mother, will never have my full love.
Posted July 1, 2009 at 12:12am
and i’m dying ; alex
to feel the california sun on my face. leaving tomorrow morning, 10 a.m. i’m going to lay on the beach, soak in some rays. hello sunshine; goodbye arizona.
Posted June 20, 2009 at 10:05pm
Addicted; Shaina
And its times like these, that I would trade for the world. When every single love, or sad song reminds me of him. That the one person I was sure, I could spend the rest Of my life with, is with someone else, whether I like it Or not. The boy I am not in love with, just completely, Addicted to. He was everything to me. I made him MY everything. I made him Me. & now that he has left me, every little piece of me, now has to be built up from scratch. I know I sure as hell will do it too. I may have made him everything, but I need to Find myself again. I know I will. Some way. Some How. I will. If it takes crying every night. If it takes even seeing her with him, To realize, we’re done. That its Time for me to move on. I will do everything to build myself Again, because the one person I depended On, did nothing but tear me down the most. So I will do this. I will re-create myself. I will do this, for me.
Posted June 18, 2009 at 7:01pm
This; Shaina.
Im done with this. Im done with Bullshit, i call my life. You constantly are bitching, at me for everything. No matter what i do, its never good enough for you. I fucking hate it here. I hate being with you. I hate being with Him. So fuckk you bothh. Im done with your bullshit.
Posted June 17, 2009 at 10:21pm
let’s start off like this kidds.
hello there, alex and shaina here. residents of thee hottest place on earth, arizona. bored for summer, spending countless hours on the computer until we stumbled upon this site. took interest, making one of our own. <3
Posted June 16, 2009 at 5:20pm
